When I started this blog, I set out to write in response to writing prompts. And although that is still my goal, it seems as if there is a lot going on in my life that I need to write about. This blog is personal in nature, meaning it is not aimed at you, my reader, but just a place to practice my writing, and now, it seems, a place to vent, rant and rave.
Since the age of 10 I’ve been struggling with porn and masturbation (MB). I’ve gone more than a year without MB in May/June of this year, but I’ve been struggling with porn. I don’t mean watching porno’s or blue movies or such, but reading erotica, people’s nude non-sexual experiences and catching a glimpse of naked people’s pictures (erotic or not).
I began a 10 day abstinence venture earlier in the week. But, I failed today. I’ve been experiencing withdrawal symptoms, i.e. tension throughout my body. The desire to be naked grows by the hour because I used to remove all my clothes (at home) when I became extremely horny just to release the tension in the beginning of my MB abstinence journey. I didn’t MB though. I just sat there naked, cleaned the house, or walked around the house naked. It helped me a lot. Now, I’ve felt the same kind of tension since starting this 10 “fast” and need to write about it.
Another blog I can start yes, but I don’t want to have a blog just focused on my struggles. It must be balanced hence a new category in this blog. All posts directly related to my struggles in this area will be tagged Winds of Change. You are more than welcome to encourage me. But, please note that things might get graphic at times although that is not my intention.
I also hope that these posts will inspire others to fight their addiction or attraction to pornography. I cannot guarantee how often I will post in this category, but I will post both the good and the bad.